I can't sleep.
It's been a bit of an up and down couple of weeks. I worked additional hours during the week leading up to Easter and the Easter weekend and even though I'm on holiday from work at the moment I still seem to have so much to do. I've been having to meet up with friends and attend appointments because I'm scheduled for an operation on my knee in just over a week and will be unable to do much for about 2-3 weeks after that so I'm cramming everything in. It's exhausting.
After meeting up with friends on Friday evening and Saturday I've spent most of today sleeping. This could explain why I can't sleep now. The thing is it wasn't even a mad weekend, very little alcohol was consumed and I wouldn't even say I had any late nights. But this morning I only awoke at 11am, lacked energy all day and by 4pm I was unable to stay awake. I was woken up for my dinner at 6pm and now I can't get to sleep. I feel like my recovery is going backwards.
Mainly I feel this is due to the constant pain and exhaustion my gall bladder is giving me. In January I had the night from hell. It all started at around 7pm on the Sunday evening. I've been dieting since around May last year and after allowing myself a bit of a break over Christmas had got back onto the healthy eating. After a particularly stressful day in work I had decided to take the night off, I'd been good since Christmas and just needed a bit of a pick me up. Following that I felt the worst pain I had ever felt in my life. I didn't get a single bit of sleep that night and I just spent the whole evening in various crazy positions, rocking, rolling around, crying in agony. I was hallucinating pretty badly too and couldn't think rationally. Not once did I consider shouting for my mum for help or calling the out of hours doctors. I don't think I even knew where I was and couldn't even have told anyone what the pain was. I couldn't even pin point it. The following morning my mum found me at around 10am screaming in so much pain. She managed to calm me down, I managed to think a little more clearly and was able to pin point my pain to my right side underneath my rib cage. Turns out I had an infected/inflamed (I've been told two different things so I have no idea which is the case) gall bladder and gallstones. Great.
I've had so much trouble since then and still don't have an operation date. I had about 3 weeks where I managed to get it under control but it seems to be dragging me down again. My doctor has tried to get the op sped up but I've heard nothing and my knee surgeon may not go ahead with my surgery next week unless everything is well with my gall bladder. It's absolutely frustrating.
I'm working so hard this week to keep rested and try not to aggravate the gall bladder. Hopefully it will settle down again. I'm just constantly tired and I am desperate to get my other health problems sorted out as it's having such an impact on my progress with my M.E.
I'm desperate to get things sorted out so that I can move on with my life and start living again. Mentally I'm ready for that now but my body seems to disagree.
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